I pick the girls up on Friday around 7PM and bring them back at 2PM Saturday. Friday usually goes awesome. We get something to eat, bring it home, and watch some movie or two. Saturday, not always so well. It starts good, but as the leaving time draws nearer, the Elder will start to get grumpy, and sometimes go into a full-on tantrum. Every parent knows what this means. They’re hungry. They didn’t get enough sleep. Something is wrong and...
Last week my doctor switched me from Parnate (tranylcypromine) to Nardil (phenelzine). At least it’s easier to spell. Yesterday at work my friends kept asking if I was high. I was very tired, maybe slightly euphoric in that tired kind of way. Not a particularly pleasant high, unless all I had to do was sit in the sun. Not if I had to correct the code of others in the middle of a deploy. After work, I had a...
I feel that this has given me the most incredible and wonderful thing that I have ever been given, and also, the worst. […] I’ve had my whole soul undermined by it — on the one hand. On the other hand, in one sense, my experience has been about finding joy. It was Memorial Day weekend. The day before, maybe. End of May. Sunday? She was taking the kids to visit with her parents in Rochester. As they went outside...
No new MAOI dosage, no more late-night milk-spilling slapstick, and no better feelings. To be fair to the meds, the past month has been a stressful one. The wife thinks I have Asperger Syndrome. (Henceforth “AS” for brevity and to avoid the “ass-burger” images.) It fits my career, lifestyle, and personality, and I’ve suspected it myself. Unfortunately, if it’s AS and not “just” depression and anxiety, the behavior that causes us so much domestic strife is not so much a...
We’ve been trying a “cash budgeting” system for a few months now, and it’s going pretty well. That is, it covers our variable expenses. I still use a bank account dedicated to relatively fixed expenses such as rent, utilities, membership dues, and minimum credit card payments. Most of those are paid automatically, pulled directly from the account. Unfortunately, there are two places where the system falls short. This isn’t so much because of any flaw in the idea of cash...
We had a great role-playing session Saturday night. I found a group through meetup.com and we’re playing the “Dawn of Defiance” campaign for the Star Wars Saga Edition RPG. It was mostly combat this week, but quite involved with some good character twists. The campaign has a section on Obsidian Portal. I took a lot of notes in anticipation of doing a writeup from my character’s perspective. Our GM gives us an extra 100XP if we do it, but I...
I sat in a pool of milk and wondered how it got on the floor. I knew I’d spilled it on the countertop trying to pour it into my cereal, but how did it get all over the floor? I stood, shakily, and saw that the half-gallon cardboard container of organic whole milk was tipped over, as was my cup of cereal. Milk was everywhere, soaking boxes, creeping under the toaster, dribbling into the sink. Wednesday afternoon, my psychiatrist upped...
I ate one bite of the pesto, then went to check the jar. Grana Panado cheese. It seems to be an aged cheese, so I erred on the side of caution and didn’t eat the dinner, which kinda pissed me off because the kids hardly touched theirs, either, and thus my wife’s dinner-making effort was wasted tonight. The one bite doesn’t seem to have done anything. “Thank God I only took a tiny [bite].” As I was Googling “Grana Panado”,...
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