Posts primarily about myself.
Earlier this week, I was drinking. Yes, back to drinking. When I say drinking, I mean starting around nine or ten with a double vodka in cranberry juice and proceeding likewise throughout the day. Of course, when the woman returned from work around 6PM, nothing had changed from my previous runs with drinking. I was still a resentful, insecure child to her. So, instead of quitting, I thought I’d experiment. If I quit around 1PM, I’ll be alone until the...
In October 2024, I got a message on Slack from our HR gal asking if I could join a chat with her and one of my managers. Yeah, of course, I’m actually doing real work right now, so what could be wrong? Then we get in there, and it’s solemn, and it’s a situation where you know you can forget about what you’re working on and take the rest of your life off. I received a two-month severance, which, unlike...
I’m not doing a huge post. I’m doing fairly well. Both of my daughters are grown and well. The same woman and I have a new little “poochon” dog named Howard after Lovecraft. Weed is legal in NY, so that’s great, but I’m still drinking way too much vodka. I’m unemployed as of October. Got severance until. well, today, I guess, so tomorrow I’m officially on the dole. Getting my blog back up and working is part of an effort...
Last night was a rough one. Not sure if it had anything to do with the lithium; probably more a case of a particularly typically awful day at work. 2016-12-14 (Wednesday) Woke up early today. Took the first morning 300mg. I’d divvied up all my morning and night doses in a pill reminder box. I could skip a day with just the Wellbutrin and friends, but don’t wanna miss one with lithium in the mix. Got to work early, too....
Went to bed yesterday around noon-thirty while spending a sick day at home, mostly out of boredom. Woke up at 5PM. While finishing leftover potatoes and brussels sprouts, I watched the tail end of “Don’t Make Waves” with Tony Curtis (with Sharon Tate), then a few episodes of “How the Universe Works” before settling into a funk that had me definitely wanting to flick the switch. I took my double-double of Klonopin and lithium and went back to bed around...
After exhausting the pharmacopoeia of most depression-fighting medications, my drug dealer finally prescribed lithium. After I’d suggested it. A special fellow crazy person to whom I am attached has been taking it with spectacular results, although with a bipolar history. My disorderly mental health record has consisted mostly of deep and dark troughs and void of manic highs save for the few hours after my morning Adderall. Nevertheless, lithium is (one of?) the only medications proven to reduce rates of...
Me / Media / Movies / Star Wars / Words
by Quinn · Published February 5, 2016 · Last modified May 12, 2026
Beginning a series of copy-pastes of my comments posted on Google+, since few people read G+, and the comments are usually buried so deep that even fewer people will read them, and the ones I pick are usually worth a wider audience. Like fazigu.org. Yeah. I probably have a larger audience than Google’s social network. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. Anyhoo, this was one of those flash-polls on the Star Wars group. Two buttons with two logos: Disney and Lucasfilm...
Six months. 31.5 times six. 93 days? I’m not particularly mathematically adept at this time. Nevertheless and irregardless– off the wagon. First, it was the party for a friend of my lover. Strong through an hour, maybe two. Then anxious. Then was asked to get a drink for her. Hers were weak. I nod and smile. To the bar. Drop a twenty. “Double vodka.” It was downhill from there. Down into “Proud Mary in the...
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